Anonymous said: How come you don't like sex? I'm just asking because I don't care for it either and I feel like a weirdo for it...
okay, so i’m just going to write about this once and briefly because i honestly don’t like talking about this.
i don’t like sex because i do not get anything out of it. only i can make myself cum so what’s even the point of sex? it doesn’t particularly feel good. it feels kind of invasive. don’t get me wrong, i have had good sex, but that doesn’t change anything. i’ve never looked at another human being and thought “yes, i want to bump naked against that body” other people do not turn me on, other people do not make cum. however, when i’m first in a relationship i do go through a hyper sexual phase where i can have sex like 4 times a day. this period lasts about 3 months and i think it’s a subconscious effort to keep someone interested. fooling around is really just someone paying super close attention to me.
i consider myself asexual, but i still have romantic feelings for people and have no problem finding others attractive. i just am really not turned on by other peoples gentiles and i don’t like being touched sexually.
now, was i born or made this way? i do not really know. i’m like 80% sure that i’ve always been this way, but i was sexually assaulted multiple times by my boyfriend in 8th grade. so the trauma of that could have caused this. but i’m pretty sure it just added onto how i already felt because the whole catalyst of the assaults happening was the fact that i just didn’t want to fool around. i just didn’t really care about it. this same feeling lead to me getting raped a few years ago.
so yeah, if you are going through sometime similar please come off of anon to talk about it. other than that, it’s still something i’m dealing with.